Monday, July 14, 2003

The music coming out of the speakers is tinny and too close sounding. I am apathetic, here and now. I am glued to this screen trying to figure out my existence and my place in the world. With words I conjure images of hiding under the table from all that wants to hurt me. In my head I am perfect. I am floating, so light near the ceiling. Sunlight streams through me and I feel like I could dissolve now. All of my worries would be gone and my heart wouldn't feel so heavy. I feel weighted here. Anchors are attached to my ankles and everytime I try to move, the ropes chaffe. All I hear inside my head are distant sounds. Echoes in the ocean almost. I wish I was a wave.

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