Monday, February 28, 2005

Modest Mouse was 10 kinds of awesome. It was lovely to see my ladies as well. But you already know that.

Let's talk about one of my passions....

I have bought yarn and cast on 42 stitches for my new project. However attempting to purl is giving me fits. I'm not so great at it. At one point I had it mastered but I am quite rusty now. So it is a challenge. I hope I don't have to rip out and start over again. I have done this once before. It annoys me. I have (had) this thing with my knitting projects. I am scared to do things that are challenging because I am afraid I will have to start over and over again. I figured I had to stop that because that is no way to be a knitter. So I am doing this scarf because it is a challenge - I am not so great at purling. I am also going to do this project with minimal help from my mom. As soon as I get the hang of purling again. Tomorrow Mommy and I are going to the Cities. We are visiting a yarn shop and other shops too. I am in search of a needle case holder thingie. I need one cuz Mommy is sending me back to school with every size needle ever from Granma's stash of needle's. I am most excited.

Been cleaning my room. My desk is clean so I can set up my compy and type my little heart out there. It makes me happy. I have also cleaned out much crap from many places. I also didn't realize that I had so many clothes that I did not wear or had been saving for some odd reason. I feel FREE of my clutter!!! FREE!!! All that is left to tackle is my closet...oh dear lord.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

I have pain in my heart. I can't make it go away.
Like, I feel all broken inside and I feel like because I've been broken inside so many times that I can't put the pieces back together anymore. I don't understand why things can't just be the way I want them to be. Like I want to feel whole again but there is this gaping hole and its sucking everything into it so fast that I can't fix it. I wonder when things get to go right for me? Right in the way I want them too. I know I shouldn't be waiting around but I can't help but wait because there is nothing better to do. There is nothing there anymore to spark me or keep me going like there used to be. I feel blank. Maybe it's better off if I just stopped caring?
I know its come back. I felt really really good for a too short a period of time. I felt strong and invincible. Now I feel weak and small. I can't remember when I last felt good before then. I wanna feel good again but I don't know if I can do it.

And that's what's been bothering me.
Bjork, with her soaring voice, lifts me up even when I am feeling my lowest of lows.

Last final today.

Monday, February 21, 2005

Lookit what my next knitting project is going to be!!! It 10 kinds of awesomeness!
I made a a play list for my ipod for the plane ride home. It makes me excited to go home. I only have one final left. I get excited.
Home will be super duper awesome. Cuz this place is starting to make me all funny in the head. Plus I get to go to a Modest Mouse concert!!!!
Also I have posted to your favorite photo blog and you know what would make me very happy? If you kids commented.
Remember Febuary 23 EC airport. My arrival.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

I forgot! You must also see this hotness!!!
I did some tweaking and now my spring quarter shedule is full of hotness! Oh hells yes. Spring quarter is going to be sweeeeeet.

Sunday, February 13, 2005


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Remember that story I told you about my pinky nail doing all that damage? Well here is said damage, live and in color. I hope you enjoy.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Thank you for those who have commented on my pictures. For the rest of you who have looked at them but have not commented, what the fuck? No really, what the fuck?
I have much to do this weekend. Studying, final projects to finish. But I have taken time out from my busyness to give y'all an update on my happenings.
Friday morning my pinky nail did serious damage to my hand as I managed to slash the area below my thumb quite severly with said pinky nail. It is a nasty looking gash that looks as if something much worse than a pinky nail could have inflicted such damage.
Friday was also the day I recieved my Valentine's cheese box from Mommy and Daddy. It thrilled me to bit because y'all know how much I loves cheese. The cheese tastes MARVELOUS by the way.
I am going to be releasing my anger this spring via rugby. Apparently, according to those who will not be named, I have much anger to be released. I will just pretend my opponent is him. I digress. I am very excited about rugby as I will be playing with my posse. We are all living together next year so we are doing this to bond. Plus playing in the mud is fun.
I am much looking forword to Spring Break. (And Modest Mouse!!!!!!) Remember EC kiddies: Febuary 23, 11PM, EC Airport. That is when I arrive and thus you should welcome me appropriately.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

It is almost midnight. I don't know how long I've been knitting for but it has been a long time. You see, knitting is like crack. It is highly addictive. Sometimes you spend lots of money on it. But I love it. I would never stop.
Check out my photoblog. Its the hizzy fa shizzy. I put up a new picture. Its what my tuition dollars have allowed me to do.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

"No...I want a fucking Range Rover." - some kid I heard today, talking on his cell phone. It was amusing.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Sickness! Why do you taunt me so? Especially when I have much work to do???
It sucks to run out of tampons.
So things are going much better. My only problem is that I really need some self-esteem boosters at the moment. Like it would be nice if SOMEONE ANYONE commented on my photos on the photo blog. Is that much of a hint? But I don't know what to do to make myself feel good. Right now, I feel like everything I do sucks. There is a scholarship I can apply for, but I don't know if I want to waste my time with it. I feel like nothing I've done so far this year is worthwhile. Because nothing ever turns out like I want it. Even relationships. Ugh.
Just a reminder that I will be home FEBUARY 23. You Eau Claire kids should keep me entertained, ya hear?