I have returned! I'm am well rested and no longer a shade of pastyness. December was kind of the month from hell for me but now I feel allllll bettttter!
I recieved many nice things for Christmas. Waiting for me on the kitchen counter when I returned was a t-shirt that said "Serbia yay!" which my brother is most jealous of. Haha! Thank you very much Sarah! (Thank you also to Sarah P. for taking good care of my house and for Whale Rider)
I shared a room with my brother the past week. He is stinky and does not put the seat down. Or flush the toliet. Or hang up his towels. Or go to bed at a decent time. He is a strange creature.
The best present of all was a letter. But I will say nothing more. I will give no clues either.

The Red Cross sent me a mean letter telling me my blood was bad. They said it tested positive for hepatitis c or b some letter. They said they could not use it. This makes me said because they must have made a mistake and now I will have to go to the doctor and get a test for real just to make sure. Stinky!
I realized today that I do not like to fly because I always end up sitting next to strangers. An old lady kept elbowing me to ask stupid questions. The plane was scary too. It shook a lot.

Merry Christmas belated wishes to all!

Donna is the coolest! I got the best Christmas present ever today! A t-shit! And not just any t-shirt! One that says Everybody Loves a Slavic Girl!!!!!!!!!!!!! I elated and overjoyed and wearing it tomorrow!

When they ask Saddam where the weapons of mass destruction are, he will say, "In George W. Bush's pussy." Because that is where they are.

Funniest thing I hears today: "By fur trade they mean prostitution." I peed myself for that one.

Hot damn

It is my christmas gift to the world!

But you've probably already seen it.

School sucks and I am ready to do done with it for awhile. I should be doing History as usual but I haven't read the chapter so that makes it hard to do the assignment.

I like Mental Health Days.

I cannot wait until next year. Not only will I be in college but I will not be working at Sharp during the holiday season. This means that I will probably like Christmas again. Which will be nice. As much as I bitch about working at Sharp, I really love so don't pay any attention the comments I make.
Evan I hope you are coming in today like you said you would. That is, if you can get in the door. The store should be jam packed with customers.
I watched the Italian Job last night. Turkish was in it! He got to play a....Turkish-type charcter. Still it was an exciting movie because fast cars were in it and Turkish drove them.
We're watching Harold and Maude in Philosophy and I don't understand why. Maybe Kaz is just trying to freak us out.

Damn I feel just like a big time scientist in the human genome project when I make graphs about base pairs whilst I wear my glasses

This is the week from hell. It is my own fault that it is so but only sort of.
I need to work on my time-manegment skills better. But this time of year it is not so easy. Work is hell. It is not cool when you come home from work and cannot stay standing because your legs hurt too much. This is the third year I've had to deal with this shit. I've paid my dues there, I think I deserve a sitting down job during christmas.
But I am writing this from home because that is where I am today. Not because I am sick but because I am tired and have fallen behind in school and am going to go crazy. It is more like a Mental Health day. I have much to do because I have not had any time to work on it.
Ugggh. The keyboard and I are best friends.
Babysitting Miss Asia yesterday was fun as always. We didn't go sleding as I had hoped because we had to go to dance class. (That was a joy in itself because I had bratty children I didn't know climbing all over me. I wanted to fling them across the room but I think their mother's would've been angry. Well their mothers should have been watching them.) Then we had dinner and by the time we got home it was almost time for bed and Miss Asia wanted to watch a Barney video. Barney is the bane of my existence. He is much too happy. I think he ODs on Prozac.
I have much to do but I cannot get started yet. I have a lab report, biweekly, and AP US hist. to do. Plus I should make an appearance at forensics practice since I have not met witch my coach yet. Oh well. Plus I have christmas shopping to do. Ughh!

So I got rejected from Madison. Which is no big deal because I didn't want to go there in the first place I only applied there to appease certain people. I'm not sad or anything I'm just bitter because I didn't get to say no to them.
But it also makes me think that if I don't get in to Madison, where will I get in? What if I don't get in anywhere? I will have to work at Sharp for the rest of my life! This thought scares me. Let me reiterate: this is one of those times when I wish I had a large and very powerful remote control and I could use it to fast forword through time and avoid all this waiting over RIT and U of M. I just wanna know! There are other things to keep me busy. School is a good start. I should be doing school work right now. I don't know how I'm going to get anything done at all this week. I'm so busy. I work Tuseday, baby sit Wed., have a band concert Monday plus monday is a holy day of obligation which means I have to go to church. Uggggh!

There was a christmas party at my house yesterday. I learned that the Yew tree is not a very well known tree.

My legs hurt like a bitch. Work was nasty today. Very busy despite the Packer/Bear game. Got to babysit people who still can't do things on their own. My favorite!

I update my other blog, Bibliophile read and enjoy!

I love half days. I went out to lunch with my mom and saw many people at Acoustic. Crazy! Then my mom and I went to find cool yarn for the purse I am going to start knitting and I spent way too much money on it. Cool yarn is expensive. Oh well. I am excited to knit my purse and I have plenty of time to do so. I bought christmas presents for my dad and my brother. I got the new issue of BUST magazine too. Then we went home and my mom and I are trying to start the purse. First you start with the bottom. You cannot start at the top like I wanted to. I wanted to do top, bottom, and then the strap but you can't do things that way. You must go by what the pattern says.
I am listening to Badly Drawn Boy. It is glorius.
I shaved my legs. I didn't realize I had a whole line of bruises up and down my shin on my right leg. A thick layer of fur will hide these facts from you.
What else? Oh! I have my senior quote! Would you like to see it? You would! Hurray! Here it is. You cannot steal it ok?

"In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer." --Albert Camus

It's funny how that describes me perfectly. It came off of a corny ass calender my dad gave me for christmas last year. That's been the only good thing that calender had going for it.

So yesterday, I wrote this post about what a bad day I had because my period was coming and stuff and I felt like I was stoned because I couldn't comprehend human speech. I posted it but it has disappeared. This makes me sad. :(
(Private to Evan - No I don't get horrible periods but I have the worst mood swings known to man before my period. So there.)
Yes Evan and I were talking about periods. Isn't that special? That's a way to make friends!
Uggh. As I begin to look toward the end of the school year the more I realize that high school is starting to become like Nazi Germany. They have implemented a whole new system in the cafeteria because stupid shitheads have been stealing things! So now only so many people can be let into the ala carte line at a time. Fucking stupid if you ask me. I'm bringing my lunch from now on. I'm 18 years old, I think I can handle eating lunch from school and not stealing things. STUPID!!!!!!!!!
I am so angry. I feel more and more like I am being treated like a small child. I want to be seen as somewhat as an adult but that obviously isn't going to happen any time soon.

Sarah E!!!! I have you photos!!! Would you like to see them? I have a half day on thursday! We should do lunch!

December 1 begins the countdown. I have 45 days until I know. My head might explode. Come January 12 y'all better be patient with me. I will be a nervous wreak.
Evan how the shit did you get my email address? You scare me. Please stop sending me ads about the penis patch. I do not have a penis. But if I did I would be proud. I think. I don't know?
Everyone should see Love, Actually. It will warm the coldest of hearts. I promise. You will walk out of the theater with a spring in your step, a smile on your face and a song in your heart.
I'm not doing homework tonight. That is really exciting. At least I think so.
Haha!

I drove to Madison and back. This is huge for me. My brother has a cute cat but it is not his because he doesn't like it and it doesn't like him.
I was planning on doing homework today because i know won't have time this week end (I will work 22 hours and live to tell the tale of christmas rush) I doubt I will even have time to go to the bathroom this weekend but I fell asleep and slept all afternoon.
I tired of my dad making comments about paying for RIT. If its going to be that much trouble I will live in a box on campus and pay for it myself.
I try to imagine what it would be like to work someplace else besides at Sharp but I have trouble. It doesn't seem possible. Maybe if I don't get into college I will work at Sharp full time. It will be my life's work.

Happy Thanksgiving.

My tummy hurts. Tonight I will have a lovely smoothie. It will be delicious and well-earned. I will finish taking Sarah's "senior" pictures. It is bad when your camera runs out of bateries but you don't believe it has because you think your camera is invincible so you try to force it take pictures anyway and when it won't you call it crappy and then you check the battery levels and realize that your camera isn't invincible and that sometimes it needs to refuel. That was the longest run-on sentence ever in the history of sentences.
I tried my hair today with a blow-dryer and not the naturally occuring air. It is fluffy and soft. I like it like this. I am turning too girly.
I hope it doesn't snow tomorrow. At least in the morning. I like to run and I want to go outside to run not to my basement. My basement is boring and kind of scary. I am afraid that spiders will come out of the cieling and fall in my mouth and I will be forced to eat them. Who says I can't run in snow? My mom for one. She will say I will get a cold. But a cold cannot catch me if I am running away from it and I am faster than the cold.
Evan do not flatter yourself. You are douche plain and simple. I have forgiven you long ago for your misdeed. But it would be nice if you payed a penance of some sort. I like penances.
My brother will be home next week. Our goal for this christmas is to make our mom cry again. Last year we did when we gave her a caricature drawn of the two of us. This year we will have real photographs take of ourselves (together of course) in a studio with a professional photographer (Mary Jo at Sharp) and she will cry because she has this wonderful picture of her wonderful children.

I am a badass gangsta bitch! I should be doing my summary for the lab we just did (which I was not here for) in Biotech but I'm not!

Sarah E -- if you read this before I'm supposed to come pick you up I'm going to be late because I have a forensics meeting I have to be at. OKEY DOKEY?

Mr. Allen has a sign in his room that says it is safe to talk to him about porn. I don't believe him.

Passports are fun. I took many passport pictures at work last night. I think I might have set a personal record. I took at least 5 I think. Horray!

So much homework. Hmmmmmmmm. I am bad because I have been putting off AP US. I am baaaaaad.

The bell is going to ring soon. I should shut up.

I'm back from RIT! All went well. The interviewer said that 80% of the early decision candidates are accepted. Which is good. But I don't want to say anything yet because I do not want to jinx it yet. I will know in January.

When I was there I realized that there is a big world outside of EC and that I cannot wait to get out of it. No matter where I go to college. Plus how many colleges have a Ben and Jerry's stand in the student union?

I hate AP US History. The tests are impossible to study for. They come straight from the book and if I go through and study each chapter that is 20 pages of reading times 4 chapters equals 100 pages to study. How the shit am I supposed to do that? Ughhh. Of course I will manage it in college. I better. At least I hope I do. I cannot be afraid of taking tests. Nope nope nope.

Where is my giant remote that lets me fast forword through time? If I had it I would fast forward to Christmas and then I would go to florida and come back and know where I am going to college.

Ohhhh well.

Ooooh girl. I am at school and this keyboard is hard to type on. I do not know why. Maybe because it is older than the hills. The keys do not press down in a pleasing fashion.
Why am I so happy today? I woke up this morning and realized....I AM ON MY OWN FOR 4 WHOLE DAYS! Yay!
No parents, no authority, no one telling me what to do...I am absolutely ecstatic!
I shall stay up very late tonight because there is no one home who goes to bed at 9:30. Haha!

I've started a blog about my love for books. Look at it here

Whooo! Party! Mom and dad are leaving for Arizona tomorrow and I shall be all by my lonesome self! Nake runs for all! Mary shall be master of her domain.

Started Doctor Zhivago today. That should be a barrel of laughs.

Last week I was in kind of a funk if some of you noticed. Although, most didn't. Nobody can ever tell with me. I may seem so happy but inside I am screaming. Anyway, last week I was really down. But I wasn't taking my meds so that is the reason. I would wake up in the morning with this awful pressure on my chest and I would feel like crying. But I never did because there is something in me that doesn't let me show my true feelings or let me say what I feel.

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seus

I love being clinically depressed, oh I love it so! When it hurts so bad to feel so good, I love being clinincally depressed!

That's my little song.
I do not like being sick.
I wonder if I stopped going to school if Sarah would be the only one who noticed. Then she would have more space in our locker.
My hair is very wet.

Some people (*fake cough*Evan M.) get too excited for Christmas. You see, in my line of work, Christmas is an evil evil holiday. Christmas is hell on earth. I do not like it. People are dumb, people are lazy, and people are mean. That is what I learn each Christmas. People leave things untill the last minute and then expect you to make things all better for them if they give you some sob story about how they couldn't get out to Eau Claire because their cat broke it's leg. That's why they need you to rush their order ahead of everyone else's because they were stupid and put things off untill the last minute. I DON'T FUCKING CARE.
I don't like Christmas because I see people being greedy and mean and disagreeable and even some of my bastard co-workers get stupid. Leaving you to do all the dirty work. "I'll just go home early tonight because I'm hung over when I'm really just going to go out again tonight and drink and then show up at work tomorrow half drunk still and not do my fair share of the work."
FUCK THEM!
FUCK ALL OF THEM!

What is the other 20%?

I should be working on my biotech lab report. But I don't wanna. It's saturday morning! The day after halloween. I have to report to work in 63 minutes.
I should've done my running thang this morning but I decided breakfast and blogging was more important. We will see how it goes after work. That is when I will probably do it.

I've procrastinated too much on the fucking lab report. I shall now refer to it as FLR. I should be working on it. But I can't! Not when the keyboard is so ripe to be used to convey thoughts other than scientific ones.
So here goes
My fingernails are crooked. It is driving me wild.
All of my college applications are in. Yay! I ended up applying at Univeristy of Minnesota, UW-Madison, and of course Rochester Institute of Technology (where I want to study biomedical photographic communications. Say that 4 times fast and don't get tongue tied! I dare ya!)
I answered the door for tricker treaters last night cuz daddy is not around this weekend. (Thankfully.) Herr Fleming brought his kinder and demanded candy. Literally. I told him he had to be nice and not eat any small children. I got mad when the little brats who came to the door would just stand there with their bags open and not say "Trick or treat!" That is what you are supposed to do otherwise I will close the door in your face. I especially loved it when they didn't say thank you. But the little itty bitty kids who could barely say "trick or treat" where my favorites. The ones I had to squat down to give candy to because they were so tiny. But by far the highlight of my evening was see Miss Asia in her costume. How can one child be so sweet and smart and wonderful? I wanted to give her extra candy but she had an annoying friend with her. Damn.

I am stinky!
I keep hearing "My United States of Whatever" in a skateboarding video game commericial. While I am happy that Liam Lynch is getting those royalties. It makes me sad. Why is it there? Oh well.
My mom is talking loudly to the cat. Best go get ready for work.

Oh hell yes. Monday is quiz day.


I'm pretty damn hard core! Fear me!


Like Dennis Leary I am an.....


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I'm done.

Time for homework.

Not.

I won my debate in AP US History.
I rule